Because this bears repeating here...
What is this that you are doing? Pitching a tantrum? You're a grown man, it doesn't become you. Honestly, shutting people out never solved anything. Yeah, there are a lot of "sharks" in the water in the business that you've chosen, but there are some friendly fish as well. Don't go doing things that you'll live to regret just because of a few (or even a lot of) assholes! There are plenty of people who understand your current problems and really do care about what happens to you.
I've told you, I know that Jari has told you, and god only knows how many others have as well, calm down. You're angry, understandably so. People are using you. Take charge. Don't let it go on any longer. Channel the anger into making things better. I don't know you personally, but I have faith in you that you CAN do this!
"This, too shall pass..."
Yeah, I'm throwing AA/NA-isms at you. You didn't think that you had any anonymity left, did you? If it's any consolation, now neither do I!
This Holger person of whom you speak, I take it that he handles business/financial matters for you. He obviously does not have your best interests at heart. I don't care if he's an old friend, family member, or whatever, you need to fire his sorry ass and find someone who does!
As for this Bella person, you can't undo that which you have already done. If she's got court ordered support, you've got no choice but to pay her. They will throw your ass in jail if you set foot in the U.S. if you don't. If as you claim, the money was sent, for crying out loud find out where it went. It could be that someone else is extorting you. Dammit, don't just sit around stewing about it. DO SOMETHING!
And while I'm on the subject, you do know that this whole situation could have been prevented. If you want to "spread the love around" that's your business, but protect yourself! I'm quite certain that this creepy "lady" isn't the only one willing to spawn one or more little "Schenkerlings" in order to collect her piece of the money and fame pie for the next 18 -22 years...
OK, I've had my say. You can listen or not. That's up to you. Just understand that what I said was said out of (dare I say it) love. If you've still got the original email that I sent you, please, send me some kind of response. I don't care if it's a "Fuck you, bitch, mind your own business!" I only want to know if you're okay...
I must really care, 'cos I'm signing my real name to this.
P.S. Here is a little piece of the lyrics to a song that this third-rate guitarist is working on. I was going to give you the completed product at a certain concert in November, but since that ain't going to happen...
"Sometimes even the angels may fall
To the ground
While others have it all
Sometimes even the angels will cry
Unforgiven are their sins
On broken wings they fly
Sometimes even the angels may fall..."
It's sort of for/about you. I hope you understand...