I Wish

That it was a bit warmer. Not being able to move around in this house that is not climate controlled is driving me crazy. I'm tired of shivering. I'm tired of not being able to leave these three gawd-awful rooms, especially since it is NOT impossible for me to do so. It is just that my loving family won't put forth the effort to get me out of here no matter how depressed I get.

All I do is sit around all day worrying about things which I would normally blow off, too much time on my hands. I'm beginning to feel physically ill because of it, but no one seems to understand.

I want to be numb. I want these next three weeks to pass in a haze. I want to sleep through them or something. I beg for someone to get me a bottle of vodka or even wine, but no one will oblige me...

My one friend who helps me through the boredom and insanity of these days (via email) cannot be online for the next few days. My computer is so old that I can't run any messenger programs without other things crashing (I'm memory deficient)...

I feel so isolated and depressed

HELP!!!!