Should I Be Feeling Guilty?

I am married to a man who I do not love. We do not live together. It is a strange situation. Why neither of us has never filed for divorce... well we are a real pair of odd ones, that's all I can say on my behalf.

I know that no matter how well we may get on while not living together, the minute we try the husband and wife thing all goes to hell in a handbasket. It just was not meant to be, and I know it..

But right now I am using that man for everything I can get from him. He's painting my house, feeding my pets, running errands for me...
I fear that he may be expecting more from me (9 1/2 short days from now) than I am willing or able to offer.
I still do not love him. I may be grateful to him, but that is all...

Good lord, I am using him. I know it and I feel guilty about it, but not guilty enough to quit.